dashiki 

had a pretty good day yesterday.. work was good, school was good, my workouts were great and it was dashiki day! lol I wish I had more dashikis. this is pretty pointless post, I know   

it’s the little things … literally 

waking up in the middle of night is a normal thing for me… but tonight, I was having something like a nightmare. I understood and saw the dream so vividly … felt every emotion and I just woke up. first thing, I turned over to see that my little sister made her way in my bed and right under me ❤️❤️❤️❤️😩😩 immediately started to thank God for such a wonderful blessing! 😓🙏 I will never understand why He gave me such an angel!! Cannot even fathom the idea of having a child of my own. I know I’m going to be such a great mommy some day! never going to abandon my child!! love them unconditionally!!  the most unselfish love.. ❤️ Ugh. idk. God works so mysteriously… anyway,

sweet dreams, guys.. pray before you lay…. again 

modern day superwoman 

women are strong. women are beautiful. women are soft. women are sensitive. women are nurturers. women are lovers. women are friends. women are everything. 

I am a woman! I stand firm in being a woman. I love who I am and very confident of who I will be! 

Women have super powers beyond an understanding of any human. We were made from a mere BONE! such a dynamic, beautiful being was made from a bone of a man. not just a simple counterpart, but an essential being that was set on this earth with a big assignment. We are miracles that create miracles. We are here to love others and most importantly OURSELVES because we were made in a PERFECT image! BUT the world continuously tears us down. 

it has taken me 21 long years to get where I am emotionally and mentally with my confidence. I refuse to let anyone or anything knock me down and tell me I’m not enough because I am! I love me! That’s ENOUGH. 

I want anyone that’s reading this to know you’re the best at being you. No one else can be you the way you are. No one else can love the way you do. No one else can possess emotion or mentality the way you can. You’re a super human! You’re a super woman! No other opinion should matter on the way you should feel about yourself. We think that others are put on this earth to validate us, but they aren’t. Loving yourself is the key. Fall in love with what God blessed you with. You’re not a mistake! You’re perfectly imperfect. Embrace it!!!!!

today, I was speaking to my teacher and classmates about dreams and goals. how many people can you really sit and talk for hours about your dreams and aspirations? How many people actually have them? Have you ever sat and thought about all the things that you want to do in the future? All the things you want to accomplish? It’s unbelievable to me that people don’t even have small goals. we go through life with no destination. I am no better than anyone. Hell no, because I was just there! Not even 5 months ago, I didnt know what the hell I wanted to do with my life. Not even knowing if I wanted to fall in love again. Lol my life was just everywhere…. but I met a pretty awesome person and he changed my views on things and became my inspiration to have some aspirations! Sometimes we just need someone to motivate us and be our cheerleader when no one else sees our potential. We need to have that reassurance that everything is going to be okay. I am so thankful to be where I am and blessed that I now have some direction. Honestly, I want to be an inspiration to someone. Even if it’s just one person. Just knowing that you can be who ever you want to be just by being inspired is empowering. Write down some goals. Give your self a time to achieve it in and kill it! Life is so much better when you are being rewarded. Let your passion be your drive and take over your life again! We all need goals. We all have a purpose! Find yours! 

Purpose Driven. God Fearing

God, please give me the wisdom and guidance to know my plan You have set forth for my life. I believe that you died on the cross for me, therefore my life has a much bigger purpose because of You! I am hungry for Your wisdom. I pray daily for Your grace. I love you with all of my heart and pray that You give me a new life in You!
🙏 amen.

mini thoughts of the night.

I tend to go off into a dark place and feel as if I’m not worth it… But lately, when I get to a weird place in my life, I separate myself from the world. I have come to terms that I am really misunderstood and that’s a good thing! It shows me that I am not normal. Something is different from me and I have a gift that I need to share with people. Finding my purpose is definitely a process, (not an easy one, for sure) but I am ready to learn AND accept what God has called upon my life. I am having a really interesting time figuring out who I am, where I want to be, and trusting that I am going to get there. I know many people my age are lost. Not saying that they are living a bad life, but they aren’t living with a purpose. Just kinda walking with a blindfold, hoping to find a way. Any way. I don’t want to be that way and I will not be that. I constantly say this, but I have big dreams. Trying to stay behind the scenes as of now until I get my spiritual well being into a new level. Then it’ll be my time to show the world the blessings of the Glo Up! Lol just stay tuned, guys. Thank you to anyone who’s watching and believes in me! Even if it’s from a distance. I appreciate all the love!